REUNION
Chapter 1
“I’d
go for TRUTH.”
“OK…Here’s
the deal….Tell us something you’ve never told to anyone, not even to your
wife….Something which no one knows about….And it shouldn’t be like
WHEN-I-LAST-PEED-IN-MY-PANTS kind of a thing….”
Chuckles
everywhere.
“Hey
hey hey…Its no less than a dare!! Telling something like that..”
“It’s
a truth alright…Is it not, everyone??”
Nods
everywhere.
The
participant stole a glance at someone seated not very far.
Perhaps its time. The day and place is also perfectly
suited. The secret should die where it was born . And today, here at
room B207, everything comes to a full circle.
He
didn’t exactly expect a reply to this anonymous call of friendship. Yet there
lay before him an answer. Was it someone prank-ing? But he didn’t know anybody
from any other department who can play such a prank on him.
Actually,
in his college, there was no dedicated classroom for any department. The rooms
kept shifting. Graph theory B005, Strength of materials B102, Maths A012, so on
and so forth. The classrooms served almost all the batches. So his seat in B207
was used by some other student from some other department, might be some other
year, You could never know. The only thing is that, when he had scribbled “Hi
this is ME. Want to be my friend?”, someone had actually written back “Hi YOU,
its ME. What are you called by others?”. Someone who might be sharing this seat
with him. Not from his department, someone completely unknown.
Romantic and utterly mysterious. Just the way he liked it.
Chapter 2
“Truth and Dare?” asked Rajesh, eyebrows raised and mouth agape, as if he had never heard anything as outrageous as that. “By this November I am turning 33 and you 35, and yet you want…” Sporting a shining bald spot of the diameter of a cricket ball (his job at a leading IT firm could account for that) and a protruding paunch belly on what seemed to be like an athletic body some years back (regular dosage of beer could account for that), Rajesh looked more than 33, somewhere in the vicinity of 40.
“Why stopping at that dear? Only 35? “, interjected Sameera, “Just a two year gap? I’m of your mom’s age probably by now, ain’t I actually?”
Sameera is Rajesh’s wife. And she for sure didn’t look 35. Her skin was still as smooth as on the first day at college, eyes still as bright. She could almost feel some men around her catching their breath when she walked. The glamour of the “Madhuri Dixit” of the college at her times was still very much in place.
“See see see my lady. I never exaggerate. And its not what I tell. All this 17 years I have heard it numerous times that I look younger than you. And given that peculiar habit you women have got of playing with your age…”
“You would always be a child for your mom and dad. I just don’t understand their mentality though. Probably would have hand-fed you all through had I not come into the household and..”
But Rajesh wasn’t listening. His attention had shifted towards the door.
A lean dark moustached be-spectacled man had entered the room, and having spotted Rajesh, was walking towards him. Sameera vaguely knew his name to be Krishna, Rajesh’s friend during college times. She and Krishna hardly spoke. Rajesh had never showed any special interest in their friendship. So they remained like branches of the same tree. Connected, but distant.
“This man kind’a used to get on my nerves those days”, whispered Ratna, into Sameera’s ears.
“Ditto”, whispered back Sameera, as she watched Krishna slump towards Rajesh.
“I am not very popular. You wouldn't know me by my name.”
“I am just curious, nothing else. What’s your name?”
“Saarthi. You?”
“Puja.”
Impossible. It had to be a prank. No girl would reply back to such things. This must be one of his friends trying to pull his leg. The only problem was that, he didn’t have many friends. Actually, only one. But he wouldn’t do such silly things. He was too busy in his world.
But this just couldn’t be a girl.
“Is that you true name?”
“No.”
Another shock. A prank-star would play along. This made no sense.
“Then what is it?”
“Does that matter? I want this anonymity. Like the way I’m talking to one of those magic diaries, with an inbuilt system to reply back. No personal contact, no expectations, no feeling of hurt. I’m a figment of your imagination, just the way you are to me. Treat me like that. For you, and you alone, I am Puja.”
Little did he know then that this name will haunt him for the rest of his life.
Ratna whispered something in Sameera’s ears, and they both got up.
“You people carry on, we will join you shortly..”, said Sameera.
Rajesh looked at Sameera, and mouthed some words, inaudibly. Sameera made a false show
of remorse. Rajesh winked back.
“You two look good together.” Ratna said, once they were out of the room. Sameera just smiled. She knew they did. They had to. They were made for each other. She had known it since the first time she had seen him during college days. And after all these years, on the eve of this reunion, when all the broken bits of memory came back and wove a web of nostalgia, she could feel how correct she has been right from the start.
“You know, that Krishna guy, and his wife are getting separated?”
Even after all these years, Ratna hadn’t changed a bit. Gossips were her life.
“Is that so?” said Sameera, more out of politeness, than anything else, not wishing to carry this topic any further.
“Peculiar guy he is, you know. My brother’s sister in law’s husband, is a colleague of Krishna. He told my husband. After marriage, his wife found out that he is not really interested in her, and that made her feel insecure. Then she found out elaborate love letters hidden in his bags and stuff. No names. But very intense. They argued, and Krishna denied everything. She started thinking he’s having some extra-marital affair.”
“That’s very common these days. People marry, fall for someone else and marry again, then fall for someone again and marry again. Sick, really, but some people do have a sick mentality. Nothing can be done about that…”
“You know, they had a love marriage. You remember that girl, who was in our batch, but later shifted to Mechanical? Her name was Aarthi. South Indian. Dark tall silent. You remember now? Krishna married her. I really feel sorry for her yaar…”
Sameera remembered Aarthi. Actually she had never forgotten her. Still the mention of her name triggered a flood of memories. Memories of a time 15-16 years back, when they were in first year, when she was just starting to get popular. Disturbingly popular .
“Just pray Krishna doesn’t get a TRUTH in the game.....”, Ratna said.
“And what do you think, he’ll spill the truth out about his failed marriage and extra-marital affair right in front of everyone, just for the sake of a kiddish non-sense?”, Sameera replied, smirking.
“No, he won’t…but we can have him wrong footed even if for just an instant…”
Sameera just shrugged, and opened the door for the washroom. She never quite liked Ratna the way she liked her, mostly because of this nosy habit of hers.
“What? Saarthi? From when has your name been Saarthi?” amazement was written all over his face.
Saarthi said nothing. He had just started to feel that he had made a huge mistake by spilling the beans. He could just have feigned that all those scribblings didn’t relate to him.
“And come on yaar…Love her? You aren’t even sure whether she is a girl actually. Never met her, never spoke to her. Just such scribblings on the desk. Don’t you think its fool-hardy?”
Saarthi couldn’t help that. He was bound and gagged. Only thing he knew was that he was desperately, irrefutably, unconditionally, intensely, and irrevocably in love with Puja. Worse still, even after this 4 months of communication, he had no clue as to who was hiding behind the garb of that identity. Perhaps he didn’t want to know. He wouldn’t be able to handle if it was some boy picking him apart, thinking it all was a joke.
Actually, he hadn’t meant it to be like that. He wanted Puja just the way she had wanted him, a diary to spill all your emotions out, and yet feel safe, as it would never know his identity. He had told her things he had not told anybody else. They had developed a code language, by simply replacing each alphabet in a word by the next alphabet. When SECRET became TFDSFU, CRUSH became DSVTI, none knew what deep secrets were shared right before them.
All was going well. Puja told him things about herself, which perhaps she wouldn’t even share with another girl, same was the case with him. They didn’t realize that with those deep, guarded secrets of their personal lives, they were giving away to each other parts of their souls. What started as friendship, fuelled by the romanticism of mystery, ended as a blind need. They had unwillingly become an inseparable part of each others lives.
Chapter 3
Aarthi
was sitting with her batchmates from Mechanical 96 batch. Sameera walked right
to her. She had come with Krishna, but then
Sameera was not able to recognize her. She looked very different. She looked
plump, but somehow emaciated. The eyes were dull-bored-sad.
She
had recognized Sameera instantly. They chatted for sometime, the usual
woman-to-woman talk. She pointed out her husband, across the room. Krishna, sitting not far from Rajesh, was engrossed in
the Truth and Dare game. Smiling, but silent all the same.
Aarthi
didn’t bring up that issue. She couldn’t have forgotten, Sameera was ready to
bet on that. Yet she remained mercifully silent about the incident.
She came back and sat at the space
she had vacated. Game was on full swing.
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“Stop
writing back….Listen to me, only you are suffering beacuse of this….This
is absurd yaar…..Just suppose if it finally comes out to be a boy? What then?”
“What
if it’s a girl for real?”
“Come
on….No girl writes back to strangers like this….And even if it’s a girl,
where’s the surety that she feels the way you do?....”
Saarthi
had no answer.
“Let
it be what it is, the best of dreams…End it at this, and there will be no
heart-break…If you carry it forward there might be some nasty surprises waiting
for you…Then you will forget how good it felt, will only remember that you were
made a fool of….don’t let that happen….relish what you have already got, than
craving for what might not be….forgotten the story of the duck laying golden
eggs, have you?”
Little
did he know how difficult it was to let go……Yet, somewhere in the deepest
unreachable niche of his heart Saarthi knew whatever he said is true, very
true…..
He
knew he had to do it,…He had to stop writing to Puja.
What he did not know then, was that,
without any notice, Puja would also stop writing to him anymore.
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“OK,
Here’s the truth….”, he said softly. “I cheated on a friend, took advantage of
his innocence, all for getting the love of a girl whom I loved dearly, and who,
I thought then, would fall for him if I did not intervene in time.”
Silence.
It was pretty late in the night and many had already left. The rest were mainly
his friends. Some were not, but it didn’t matter. They would soon know. Such
things spread like flue.
“Yes,
what I did was wrong. But I was in love, and I was blinded. I know I can’t
expect forgiveness, but forgive me out of your own goodness, Krishna”,
Rajesh said in a low voice.
Krishna sat
stone-still, eyes on Rajesh, face giving away nothing.
“During
our initial days in college, Krishna started
friendship with a girl who called herself Puja. He never met her, never spoke
to her, didn’t even know for sure whether it was a girl for sure or not. They
used to talk to each other only through scribbling on the bench, here, in this
room. He called himself Saarthi. They talked of I don’t know what. All I know
is that Krishna eventually fell for this
mystery girl.
Till
that I had taken it as a joke. But when I saw that he’s kind of dragging
himself to a pitfall, I thought of finding out the prank-star who was doing
this. Made some queries and found out that then Electrical first year (our
department) and Chemical first year only used this classroom.
One
day during break, I came into this classroom, when Chemical first year batch
was here, under the pretext of finding a book I forgot here. There, at Krishna’s seat, sat the most beautiful girl I had ever
seen, or will ever see. I was stunned that a girl like her was carrying out
such an anonymous relationship with Krishna.
And that day, I felt jealous, very jealous of Krishna.
I
got her name from a guy I knew, from her department, and walked straight upto
her, and asked “Do you write these notes on this bench?”
She
looked up and stared right into my eyes. And at that very instant I knew that
she is the one for me, that I’d be incomplete without her, and so would
be she. Surprisingly I had no doubt that she would understand and reciprocate
my feelings.
She
had replied “Yes”, without taking her eyes off me.
“From
next time we can do the conversation in person. What do you say, Sameera?”
She
had just smiled.
I
convinced Krishna not to carry on the
conversation any further, because if he did that, she would know that I am not
Saarthi, and lose her trust in me. Krishna
believed me, and the correspondence stopped.
We
started seeing each other more and more often. Luckily for me Sameera never
brought up the topic of those chats. Perhaps she wanted to leave things of past
back, and start afresh, a relationship beyond the range of friendship.” Rajesh
stopped to catch breath. He didn’t dare look up into the eyes of either Sameera
or Krishna. There was a leaden feeling in his
stomach. The silence was suffocating, vague, obscene.
There
was a rustle of clothes as someone got up. “Can we talk for a second?” Rajesh
looked up to see Aarthi standing at the door. Krishna
stood up, his head held defiantly high, and walked out of the room after
Aarthi.
“You
know what,”, Sameera spoke, her voice surprisingly radiant and light, “I think
you just prevented a divorce.”
Rajesh
looked up, dumb-founded.
“Come on Rajesh, don’t give me that
look. You think I used to write all those notes? NO. It was Aarthi .”
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“That
day when you asked if I was the one, I couldn’t say NO. I couldn’t lose you.”
Her eyes dropped, and cheeks took a crimson hue.
Actually
I had seen Aarthi scribbling over the bench. I coaxed her into telling that she
was sort of having a pen friend. She didn’t admit, but I could feel an
undercurrent of possessiveness in her about this boy. That day she had gone to
talk with someone, Ratna or Niharika maybe, I don’t remember. I came and sat in
her place to look at those scribblings. It was romantic, and kind of funny to
read. But only few sentences were legible, rest all gibberish, might be some
code.
When you came and talked to me, she
was close enough to hear what we talked about. After you went away, she came
and silently picked her things and went and sat in my seat. She vacated the
seat for me, forever. Once I mustered up the strength to go and apologize to
her, and explain myself, but she waved it off, telling that you were not the
guy she had envisioned, that you were ‘not her type’. Some months later, she
left our department, and joined Mechanical.”
“So
why did you ever propose to me, why did you marry me, if you were so deeply in
love with Puja?”
Krishna smiled. “Because
you were the closest version of Puja. Sometimes somethings you said were
disturbingly similar to her. I even had suspected that you were the one. But
time and time again my suspicion was shattered. You know why? Because no
girl can be Puja . She is flawless, created half on the image of a girl and
half from my own imagination. She can’t be for real.”
Aarthi
was silent. Then she whispered, almost inaudibly, “For you, and you alone, I
will be Puja.”
That
night, in the deserted half lit corridor, as Krishna
drew her in his arms, he could sense the truth behind the saying Marriages
are made in heaven .
Its been a ReUnion
indeed.